It goes so fast

Five years now it’s been

And I wonder why you don’t

Cross my mind almost every day

The memory is still sharp

The loss as painful as it ever was

Perhaps it’s self defence

There are associations

Interests that we shared

Books, movies, TV shows and games

Situations in a story

Reminiscent of our own

Which bring your memory back

Rekindle that ache in my chest

Fuel the tears forming in my eyes

Sometimes it’s when my eyes

Meet yours

In your picture on the

Funeral program fixed firmly

To my fridge

And at those times do we talk

Or I do at the least

But your memory is stark

Sharp

And complete

Your responses to my assertions

My questions

Almost echo in my mind

But this too is but one more

Loss to feel

Five years now it’s been

Since you left us

And I know you didn’t mean to

I try not to hold it against

But the loss is still so sharp that

I wonder why you don’t

Cross my mind almost every day

Perhaps it’s self defence